Published on 12, July, 2020
I don't know if this is an autistic experience or something else.
I could be going about my day, minding my own business, and suddenly I'm reminded of a horrible thing someone said to me or a really bad mistake that I made. Suddenly it completely takes me off track.
It alters my mood almost instantly, and I didn't even choose to think about that thing. It just popped into my head, and it won't leave for a while.
Sort of related: I did a few diagnostic tests for OCD and I scored quite highly on all of them.
I recently downloaded this Kindle book for free and it looks relevant to this topic.
https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/B0BRQT756M?smid=A1G3UP32AZJ14F
It is a translation of a Danish book I believe and seems an interesting take on managing thought processes. I haven't read it all yet.
I have been convinced I have PTSD of some sort but haven't been able to get help for it specifically.
I get random flashbacks too and I could do without them.
Hey, yeah, I get this. It's an anxiety thing for me and past trauma, I've got PTSD and this causes these horrible flashbacks and the anxiety makes me go from feeling positive and happy to suddenly being reminded about horrible things that have happened. My brain is self destructive, likes to ruin my day LOL. I wish I had more control of my thoughts but they move faster than I can think, really frustrating to deal with.
Yep. It passes but not fully and there's some things I've never managed to get rid of.
I don’t know if it’s just a random thought, it causes an emotion that feels like it will last forever.
I don't know if it is an autistic experience because I am not diagnosed but I definitely experience this. I just need one thought to flip my mood. I thought it was bipolar at first ....
yeah i was doing that alot myself and googled it a while back and its called rumination and is a autistic trait to ruminate on things constantly and have it cycle in your head and negatively effect your mood
I definitely tend to let it. I'm like "what am I doing here? I'd rather not be here"
I feel I have zero control.
It makes you feel embarrassed to exist if you let it.
It happens at random points and it just brings back all the insecurities.
Same - sometimes I think about bad social interactions when I'm working and it fills me with horror. I don't know why.
I get random thoughts all the time about mistakes I made in my past.
It's awful isn't it? It has definitely gotten worse as I've gotten older.
I have exactly the same issue. I can be happy, peaceful, sat watching a film and all of a sudden something horrible will come into my head, either an anxiety or bad memory or a fear about the future, for instance "How will I cope when my parents die?" or "what if my wife left me?" stuff like that and then the feeling of peacefulness is just gone