Published on 12, July, 2020
I don't know if this is an autistic experience or something else.
I could be going about my day, minding my own business, and suddenly I'm reminded of a horrible thing someone said to me or a really bad mistake that I made. Suddenly it completely takes me off track.
It alters my mood almost instantly, and I didn't even choose to think about that thing. It just popped into my head, and it won't leave for a while.
Sort of related: I did a few diagnostic tests for OCD and I scored quite highly on all of them.
I have exactly the same issue. I can be happy, peaceful, sat watching a film and all of a sudden something horrible will come into my head, either an anxiety or bad memory or a fear about the future, for instance "How will I cope when my parents die?" or "what if my wife left me?" stuff like that and then the feeling of peacefulness is just gone
It's awful isn't it? It has definitely gotten worse as I've gotten older.