Published on 12, July, 2020
In my case, many have told me that I have made them feel uncomfortable so I've really had to look at myself.
I've never intended to, but I think me being so closed off emotionally (masking perhaps) plus a lot of bad habits didn't really help. I've spilled my guts to people I didn't know very well, and have probed people for personal info sometimes. I regret all of that and am a lot more aware of how I come across, as well as what's appropriate and what's not.
I started looking at how Ed Sheeran speaks and conducts himself in interviews. He'll be the first to admit that he's not the most expressive man in the world but I always think he has a coolness and swagger when he speaks and I wish I had that, but I'm basically masking if I try and emulate him.
The people who used to be in my life would probably describe me as quite expressive sometimes, even though my sense of humour has always been quite dry (another something which doesn't help perhaps?).
I guess it's just about finding that confidence.
I know how i come across.An idiot.That's masking for you.
If you mean on here, I think you come across as enjoyable, plus I’m always wondering what could sound so good, that you would headbang perpetually like that..
Thanks DeSpereaux.I don;t tend to post my problems on here, i would rather try and make others laugh even when i dont feel like it. The headbanging is me thinking what joke to crack next while the headphones are inplace to help me to think without disturbance or distraction.