Published on 12, July, 2020
In my case, many have told me that I have made them feel uncomfortable so I've really had to look at myself.
I've never intended to, but I think me being so closed off emotionally (masking perhaps) plus a lot of bad habits didn't really help. I've spilled my guts to people I didn't know very well, and have probed people for personal info sometimes. I regret all of that and am a lot more aware of how I come across, as well as what's appropriate and what's not.
I started looking at how Ed Sheeran speaks and conducts himself in interviews. He'll be the first to admit that he's not the most expressive man in the world but I always think he has a coolness and swagger when he speaks and I wish I had that, but I'm basically masking if I try and emulate him.
The people who used to be in my life would probably describe me as quite expressive sometimes, even though my sense of humour has always been quite dry (another something which doesn't help perhaps?).
I guess it's just about finding that confidence.
I have always been very self conscious.
But recently I've made a breakthrough. If I ensure I approach every conversation by ensuring I am kind then it doesn't matter how I am received, that is out of my hands, I leave it knowing it wasn't me it was them
Like your response!!......Just because you are considered `different` should never mean you are the one in the wrong or the one that is wrong
Exactly. I often make mistakes or miss punchlines etc, but as long as I'm kind in my responses it comes off as my vulnerabilities. This can of course be jumped on and ridiculed by other parties, but I don't care because if they do then they aren't worth my time.
I reckon it as an approach to you all, honestly. Feels like I'm wearing a very thick, very kind, suit of armour!
Thats nice of you to say. Honestly, there isn't a very long queue