Lonely but don't like people

Does anyone else feel like I do?
I feel lonely and desperate for friends to talk to but at the same time I don't like having to talk to people and I want to be at home with just me and my family and shut the world out and not have to see anyone or text anyone

It feels like quite a contradiction but so does much of my life

Also, I think its hard for me as I feel I can't truly be myself with most people, especially NT's 

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  • Yes I'm exactly the same. I would love friends, I'm envious of people with large social circles but when I try to talk to people anxiety hits me like a train and a meltdown is imminent. I'm lonely and desperate for a single friend but it's like one of those impossible dreams that I know I'll never get because of the way I am.

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  • Yes I'm exactly the same. I would love friends, I'm envious of people with large social circles but when I try to talk to people anxiety hits me like a train and a meltdown is imminent. I'm lonely and desperate for a single friend but it's like one of those impossible dreams that I know I'll never get because of the way I am.

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