Lonely but don't like people

Does anyone else feel like I do?
I feel lonely and desperate for friends to talk to but at the same time I don't like having to talk to people and I want to be at home with just me and my family and shut the world out and not have to see anyone or text anyone

It feels like quite a contradiction but so does much of my life

Also, I think its hard for me as I feel I can't truly be myself with most people, especially NT's 

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  • I feel very much the same. I want to have social connections, i want to be nice to be people, be a friend and have friends, but whenever i am around literally any group of people my energy drains so fast, i can't make eye contact and i just want silence. It's painful to want something but not like it. 

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  • I feel very much the same. I want to have social connections, i want to be nice to be people, be a friend and have friends, but whenever i am around literally any group of people my energy drains so fast, i can't make eye contact and i just want silence. It's painful to want something but not like it. 

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