Lonely but don't like people

Does anyone else feel like I do?
I feel lonely and desperate for friends to talk to but at the same time I don't like having to talk to people and I want to be at home with just me and my family and shut the world out and not have to see anyone or text anyone

It feels like quite a contradiction but so does much of my life

Also, I think its hard for me as I feel I can't truly be myself with most people, especially NT's 

Parents
  • oh yes.   online chat like this is about my limit.
    i am going to try an irl meetup in a couple of weeks. That will be my first attempt at socialisation in maybe 10 years. (outside work)

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  • oh yes.   online chat like this is about my limit.
    i am going to try an irl meetup in a couple of weeks. That will be my first attempt at socialisation in maybe 10 years. (outside work)

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