Published on 12, July, 2020
Hi everyone,
This is my very first post here on the forum!
I was officially diagnosed with autism last Monday, I knew I was, but there was something around to official diagnosis that changed me.
I have been consciously trying to continue to mask at work, people would normally see me as a bubbly, outgoing, confident individual and I didn't intend to let my work "mask" slip any time soon. However, I find myself being more blunt when answering things, and being more reserved when I would normally be super involved in group meetings. To the point where my colleagues joke about me being quiet "for once" and wondering if something is up.
I actually didn't even know I was doing anything different, I thought I just had nothing to say on the topics being discussed, but I don't really feel ready at all to discuss this with my peers or boss (even if I ever do!)
Just wondering what everyone else's experience is like with this? I have heard a lot about learning to unmask but I just haven't gotten that far yet given it is really new for me.
Thank you
I definitely felt like the diagnosis (which was only a couple of weeks ago) was confirmation that I was 'allowed' to let people know about any sensory discomfort or let them see what I'm really like. I haven't quite consciously dropped the mask yet, but I have felt confident enough post-diagnosis to start telling people "if you notice my behaviour changing, it's because I'm autistic and I'm trying to make my life a bit easier." I don't know if anybody has actually noticed anything or not- time will tell I suppose!
Agreed! I have been able to speak more openly with my fiance about my sensory difficulties - I really struggle with noise and it has been really difficult. I love that you are advocating yourself! I hope to be brave enough one day to do the same with more people in my life.