Published on 12, July, 2020
Hi everyone,
This is my very first post here on the forum!
I was officially diagnosed with autism last Monday, I knew I was, but there was something around to official diagnosis that changed me.
I have been consciously trying to continue to mask at work, people would normally see me as a bubbly, outgoing, confident individual and I didn't intend to let my work "mask" slip any time soon. However, I find myself being more blunt when answering things, and being more reserved when I would normally be super involved in group meetings. To the point where my colleagues joke about me being quiet "for once" and wondering if something is up.
I actually didn't even know I was doing anything different, I thought I just had nothing to say on the topics being discussed, but I don't really feel ready at all to discuss this with my peers or boss (even if I ever do!)
Just wondering what everyone else's experience is like with this? I have heard a lot about learning to unmask but I just haven't gotten that far yet given it is really new for me.
Thank you
I was actually diagnosed decades ago but because I was abused as a kid I thought it was just misdiagnosed CPTSD, and I only accepted my diagnosis after I started to get better from the CPTSD stuff, but other things remained, so I reliased it was both, and actually more than that was also going on too. So only after I had the epiphany moment (decades after the diagnosis) my mask started to slip off.I guess it depends on when it hits you.
I am so sorry. No two journeys with diagnosis are the same and you are right about when it hits you, I think this is a big part of it. For me, I kinda already knew but something about the diagnosis made me grieve for my childhood and adult self up until my age which is what hit me like a ton of bricks. It was actually quite freeing in a way too.
π Bees π (they/them) Autism resources in bio #stoptheshock #NothingAboutUsWithoutUs said:I guess it depends on when it hits you.
That is a really important point, I believe.