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I found some old photos, these characters are little paper dolls I made them as a teenager. Unfortunately the dates are not printed on the revers but I believe I took them somewhere between 2005-2006. The dolls were around 10 cm tall and they were “owners” of floor plans which I also drew. Each doll had a name that I felt fit best her face and each floor plan had its exact address (not real one, created by me) and the name of its owner. There were a lot of them both- dolls and floor plans, I had full file of them. I started drawing them in 1999. During my heaviest depressive period I unfortunately destroyed a lot of my works including my diaries and sci fi novels, because I hated myself for who I am and I used to believe everything that belongs to me and everything that I created was wrong, i didn’t want to live anymore at that time, but I don’t want to dive deeper into this.enough negativity, now I grieve all those destroyed works and I would have given a lot to have them back. It’s impossible, but thank goodness I saved some of the old photos. Here are few of those dolls photographed in front of an album about Moscow and Russia (that was my special interest at that time). The doll with dark curly hair looks like me, she is actually “me”. I’ve never been to Russia but I really wanted at that time, so the whole topic of this photo session was visiting Russia- my dream. 

I agree with Number. I think this is very cool and you are cool.

This post has raised all sorts of emotions for me.

Joy - at all the potential that you have (you are still young enough to do great things, whether just for yourself, or the sci-fi novel that lurks within you that could end up  being for everyone - my brother finally started writing a book aged 56)

Sadness - at the big purge that you did, and what caused it. I hope that all those sci-fi ideas, at least, remain in your head to recall one day. I'm glad that photos of some of these things survived.

Admiration - at the sheer amount of effort that you put into all these - the floor plans, the addresses. the sheer amount detail. This whole aspect really appeals to the younger me. I get it, even if my outlet would have been different.

The idea of you creating pictures simulating a trip to Russia is an emotional rollercoaster too.

You are more than cool, you are amazing!

Thank you so much for sharing these and your thoughts.

I agree with Number. I think this is very cool and you are cool.

This post has raised all sorts of emotions for me.

Joy - at all the potential that you have (you are still young enough to do great things, whether just for yourself, or the sci-fi novel that lurks within you that could end up  being for everyone - my brother finally started writing a book aged 56)

Sadness - at the big purge that you did, and what caused it. I hope that all those sci-fi ideas, at least, remain in your head to recall one day. I'm glad that photos of some of these things survived.

Admiration - at the sheer amount of effort that you put into all these - the floor plans, the addresses. the sheer amount detail. This whole aspect really appeals to the younger me. I get it, even if my outlet would have been different.

The idea of you creating pictures simulating a trip to Russia is an emotional rollercoaster too.

You are more than cool, you are amazing!

Thank you so much for sharing these and your thoughts.

Sorry. I'm the same. I should know better, and will remember.

Please, I don’t like complements. Don’t tell me I’m cool or amazing I’m just me. It makes me feel somehow uncomfortable. Everyone is unique and interesting.