Square Peg

I am not one of the superheroes, and I wish I was. I have an agonising combination of needing to be authentic and individualistic, and yet  feeling at best uncomfortable, at worst distressed, about how my defaulting to minority or even anomalous status in many realms leaves me exposed to the tortuous silent or vocal (by turns) judgement of NT-biased societal consensus. 

But it's better to be one's true self than fit in, have an outward cushion of conformist comfort, and an inner core screaming soundlessly in protest at the suppression of the true self - with a total breakdown (rather than regular burnout) deferred to a future point with a scarily unknowable end-point on the countdown clock.

I like to think, in the vain of trying to find a silver lining, that we exist to help humanity progress. If it weren't for those of us who are the Forager bees of the hive, we'd all be Drones who were trying to mate with the queen bee. Nothing would progress, no advancent in evolution would occur.

Or have I drunk the autism cool aid here?

I believe in our purpose. I guess we just have to suffer the loneliness of that challenge as consequence

I love your comparison

Have you heard what Dr Tony Attwood said along those lines?

I believe in our purpose as well, I just stopped believing that we have to suffer, because it ended for me once I stopped being bothered by it

odds are he is autistic, I saw him last 8 years ago, long before I had any idea, and we talk mostly online, only about games or if rarely I go home we get drunk, though he is married now and has a baby, I never asked him about his haircut, I'd rather avoid antagonising him accidently, maybe he would turn prickly about it, I have no idea how to predict outcome of something like that, and he is the only one from my home city of 40k people

maybe because he is McGyver fun 

https://www.imdb.com/title/tt0088559/mediaviewer/rm4233741312?ref_=ext_shr_lnk

his looks like that on a good day and I think it's when his mom makes him use a comb, you might imagine how it can be for a geek without dad

For fashion, or does he genuinely not care? He might be a superhero

Breaking Bad is quite good, an eye opener, yes he has a nice lawyer who owns beauty saloon 

I forgot the only buddy from school years who stayed in my city and we keep contact he never stopped having 19080 hairstyle LOL

Had to look up who Mr White was; I never watch modern TV shows.

I also have a good Lawyer.

I've seen people with 1980s hairstyle recently LOL

I do beard and mustache Mr White style

If you are drinking out of a bucket, you may want to adjust slightly, as you probably have a moustache, and that's SOO 1980s ...which is probably now back in fashion .lol

I'd rather say a mug or a jug, or a bucket instead of glass we are of entirely different variety

Thats inspiring to know, well done you!

Yes Tony Attwood. He has two autistic kids I think, so knows it personally. Still think we need Aspies becoming specialists on it as, we know!!

There are so many positives about being on the spectrum, just gotta see the cup as half full I guess.

I'm just getting frustrated and being impatient with myself I guess, no shortcuts to life's journey

Thats inspiring to know, well done you!

Yes Tony Attwood. He has two autistic kids I think, so knows it personally. Still think we need Aspies becoming specialists on it as, we know!!

There are so many positives about being on the spectrum, just gotta see the cup as half full I guess.

I'm just getting frustrated and being impatient with myself I guess, no shortcuts to life's journey

odds are he is autistic, I saw him last 8 years ago, long before I had any idea, and we talk mostly online, only about games or if rarely I go home we get drunk, though he is married now and has a baby, I never asked him about his haircut, I'd rather avoid antagonising him accidently, maybe he would turn prickly about it, I have no idea how to predict outcome of something like that, and he is the only one from my home city of 40k people

maybe because he is McGyver fun 

https://www.imdb.com/title/tt0088559/mediaviewer/rm4233741312?ref_=ext_shr_lnk

his looks like that on a good day and I think it's when his mom makes him use a comb, you might imagine how it can be for a geek without dad

For fashion, or does he genuinely not care? He might be a superhero

Breaking Bad is quite good, an eye opener, yes he has a nice lawyer who owns beauty saloon 

I forgot the only buddy from school years who stayed in my city and we keep contact he never stopped having 19080 hairstyle LOL

Had to look up who Mr White was; I never watch modern TV shows.

I also have a good Lawyer.

I've seen people with 1980s hairstyle recently LOL

I do beard and mustache Mr White style

If you are drinking out of a bucket, you may want to adjust slightly, as you probably have a moustache, and that's SOO 1980s ...which is probably now back in fashion .lol

I'd rather say a mug or a jug, or a bucket instead of glass we are of entirely different variety