Published on 12, July, 2020
So one thing I do hate about adult life is how boring it gets. It's very reppretive and half the time you feel like your in limbo. TV sucks new music sucks politics sucks religion sucks gaming sucks Christmas and birthdays sucks the older you get even football gets boring after you've been to like 5 matches. Wieredly though I've found the only thing these days that brings me pleasure is either stuff that scares me or brings me an adrenaline rush or physical pain. Which sure may make me sound crazy to some but when life gets boring to the point of beyond belief that's all that seems left. All I'm saving for now are tattoos as I have the majority of meterlistic items I need so now and I've exceled at my hobby so now I'm turning my body into art. Looking into taking up boxing too. And looking forward to hiking bit since covid everything's just been ***.
Hi PR,
I understand. Negative loops in the brain are soooo much fun. Not!! I think you've sorted it out though by planning what you are going to do and it sounds pretty cool that you design your own clothes with patches and stuff (I saw your comments below your actual post). I love making stuff too but it's hard when your brain has it's negative record playing. Keep on fighting. I'm glad you posted as my internal stuff sounds similar so now I feel less alone in that.
H :-)
Yeah being ADHD as well as ASD makes it suck even more kind of strugel to get out the cycle and can't get out of the negativity just feels like limbo half the time.