# Daily updates 3 # by aidie

I have to upload an up to date CV within 5 days.  And I am committed to making actual job applications every week.

Biggest disappointment was that they didn't offer me either tea or coffee.

did u get anything out of it ?

My 15 minute job centre appointment lasted 45 minutes.

yea they dont want people crowding the place ( covid thing ) i got that alot in my hospital appointments but they just let me sit somewhere.  

but the people in my GP tests lab.  make u wait outside in ur car and only come in when texted.    I walk there so will have to stand outside. 

this was same procedure as a hearing test lab i attended.few months ago,,,  stand outside until they text u or come and get you.

I have just arrived at my job centre appointment, 15 minutes early.  I have been asked to leave and return in 10 minutes.

thats a bummer.  

It's a recurring injury, GP has given me a large supply of pain killers.

Foot has also been x-rayed, so no fracture.

show it to your GP 

---- elevate it eg lie on sofa with foot on the top of back of sofa,, to see if that reduces the pain

some painkillers dont reach into all parts of body thats why u need to talk to GP as they will need a presription

I have an appointment at the job centre at 14:25 I suppose I will attend.

I've been getting multiple reminders through text messages, emails, universal credit journal.  All warning me of the consequences of non attendance.

The real problem is that my left foot is still in agony after three days, even with pain killers and I am having difficulty walking.

back to Magherafelt today again. My partner saw something they now want to actually buy.  I'll do some more shopping there unfortunately there arent many charity shops which are my favourite shop. 

PIP came today - apt abbreviation for such pittance.

I did get a haircut and shave this morning. But I blew the money I withdrew today on food and debt repayment. And, in my infinite wisdom, I ordered an LP I hoped to get on eBay. It was reissued last Saturday, for Record Store Day.

Back to begging and borrowing.

That's my neck of the woods.

what can i say,,,, my trip to Magherafelt was not very exciting.   the new road to it was the highlight :)

Driving to Magherafelt tomorrow.  Havent been there for ages, driven through it loads but not tomorrow I will be actually be in it shopping. Maybe get my nails done

mowed my lawn -  and re-potted some baby trees - then it got too hot so had to come in for a break

got my building project completed within one hour i expected a day ! everything just went well

I'm not afraid of dying, I'm afraid of living 

Nice hot sunny weather today, so I got an unlimited travel day bus ticket and of I went.

Highlights of the day:

A young lady on the bus was getting sunburnt and asking passengers for sun lotion, I had some in my rucksack so I shared it with her.  The poor girl didn't know if she was coming or going, she asked me if this bus was going to Otley Chevon, we had left Otley 10min ago and were approaching Ilkley.

I explored one of my favourite places, Heptonstall woods, down to Hebden Bridge, the rainbow capital of Yorkshire.  There I discovered that you don't need a garden to have a garden.

On the way home I went through Halifax bus station, what a dump.  All the electronic bus information boards were out of order, the main ones and the individual ones at the stops.

The travel centre was closed, staff shortages? Maybe they decided to take the extended weekend off due to the nice weather.

I don't have that, but I think about death a lot.

In my experience, it's feeling a lack of life purpose and feeling trapped/restricted by having to participate in societal constructs such as earning money ( I have a full-time job) and feeling like society and other people place so many expectations on you that I often feel "claustrophobic". I like an element of routine but mostly I just feel restricted or controlled by it in some way. I often think of a song lyric from a Smashing Pumpkins song. "Despite all my rage, I am still just a rat in a cage".