Published on 12, July, 2020
I don't know where else to turn.
Had a therapy appointment yesterday, GP appointment tomorrow. I'm really hurting, but I can't tell anyone. The "S" word has consequences. I just can't say it, I cant cope with what might happen I'f I do.
It's ok, I don't expect any replies, I'm not after attention. I just needed somewhere I could be honest with myself.
Sorry.
*Thank you so much everyone for your kindness, you are all truly amazing people.
Have you had any tests to check for physical issues as I was reading your other post about being exhausted.
No I haven't had tests for a few years. GP puts exhaustion down to depression. I've messaged SHOUT, it lasted an hour and 6 minutes
Oh - did it help?
Adele M is also wise
Your mum is wise.
i went for a walking lunch ( go for a walk while eating a banana ). update me after the meeting.
Thank you aidie. I'm on my lunch break, about to return. Have a meeting today.
Ok - I hope you have a nice sleep
I was about to start getting ready for bed myself, have a work meeting and then therapy tomorrow . Have a good night Adele M x
If I disappear at some point, it's because I live with my parents and my mum turns the internet off at night! I don't have data - I have a tablet and a really basic phone. She'll probably do it at about 10:30.
I hope so x
Maybe you are having withdrawal from the second type or something - it might stop soon
So this is 3rd type of med
I've just started the 3rd month of these meds, I think I'm now 10 months in total, 7 months on 1, then just a month on the second meds.
You really ought to tell someone you are making plans though - that really is an emergency - your life is way more important than any job etc
Maybe the meds will help - it might just take a little time for them to kick in
I'm still don't know, I wish I did, there would be a starting point for fixing it.
Did you manage to get any more clarity about why you feel like this - you don't have to tell me the reasons
Don't shut up! I'm really grateful. I was holding back still, I denied that I had made plans. She was already saying that I sounded troubled and suicidal.
Remember that you can always tell them more if you are still holding things back. I'll shut up now
Ok x