Published on 12, July, 2020
I’m finding life really hard and feel like it’s all going to be over soon. I spoke to some Samaritans woman and she wasn’t much help. I’m depressed and I feel like there’s nothing I can do to come out of it on the other side. My whole life I’ve had set back after set back no matter how hard I tried everything went wrong and now I’m approaching my 20’s and I have no job, no friends, no home I have nothing. Last year I made myself a promise that if life hadn’t improved even a little by July 1st then that would be it, no more. As I suspected then my death date is almost here and I’ve taken no steps forward. Aspergers made life hard to start with but then leaving school everything around me fell to pieces. Parents are gone. I feel so alone. I need to speak to someone with Aspergers, someone who understands me because no one outside of the spectrum does or will. I’m nearly done because life is just one big headache for me. I’m hoping someone can help me.
Success is nearly always built on a foundation of failure and experience, particularly for us as we have to find our own way to navigate life more then neurotypical people. Please don't think nothing will ever get better.
That said, I understand your choice, it is hard being isolated by the lack of understanding and dealing with added set backs, very little I can say will change that. however this post makes me feel like you do want to give life a second chance. This guy pretty much saved my life not so long ago, and I'd suggest checking out some of what he has to say if you can.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G_iaya-EyqM