I'm on my own

When I got beat up every day in school there was no one there to help me. I asked other students, teachers, for help, no one did.

I ended up dropping out and in a mental hospital.

I got raped by a man. I have nothing much now.

33 years old. No friends. 

This world is fake. I don't know why people pretend they're nice. 

  • Great you write on here. We are all different and keep hoping for improvements.

    • I always try to understand why people do what they do and so wonder what you are hoping for  in writing here? Certainly I feel for your distress, which sounds terrible, but wonder how I could help .

    • life can improve if you find a place where you can fit with good understanding people

    • Life was good for me until something really bad happened 
    • finding local autistic support services or charities is a good starting place 
  • Do you have people you live with ?   parents etc?.....Hopefuly an admin will come along soon! youll get some good advice.

  • Allow me to say to you this: you still have your health, 2 arms, 2 legs, you can see, you can write, you have a net connection, you are alive.

    Focus on what you have, not in what you have not.

    It will get better.

  • Well I'm supposed to be getting care workers, am advertising for them with social services, but so far no one nearby has applied, only people from over 15 miles away which would entail lots of travel expenses. Feel frustrated with how difficult it is to find support. 

    I want to achieve some progress in my life.

  • I live on my own, just need support really.

  • Thanks. True enough, I do still have things to be thankful for. 

  • I ended up dropping out and in a mental hospital.

    Same for me , but a long time ago . Went into psych hospital from my public school during what should have been the term I took my A levels . I hope you can feel better soon .

  • Hello Roswell

    I’m sorry you are going through such a tough time, it’s good that you’ve let us know what’s happening and how you feel. Many people have similar thoughts around not having much left now and that is understandable when coping with so much . We hope you’re okay. 

     If you are unable to cope with the distress or despair, it’s very important to tell someone about your feelings or any possible thoughts of suicide you may have. I am not sure if you are still in the hospital you mentioned or not. If you are, could you speak to a member of staff on how you are feeling ? If that is not possible, call your GP and make an urgent appointment. Your GP can make sure you get appropriate help and support.

     If it’s outside your GP hours call  111  to reach the NHS 111 service:   http://www.nhs.uk/NHSEngland/AboutNHSservices/Emergencyandurgentcareservices/Pages/NHS-111.aspx 

     

    The Samaritans also provide confidential non-judgemental emotional support, 24 hours a day on 116 123, or by email on jo@samaritans.org.

     

    MIND have information pages on coping with self harm or suicidal feelings based on the experiences of people who’ve been through it that you may find helpful.if you have had any of these thoughts. 

    If you are very close to doing something to hurt yourself - call 999 now or go to your nearest A&E department. There should be someone there to support you and make sure you get ongoing support.

     

    If you need help with an autism related issue, our helpline can be emailed via webform https://www.autism.org.uk/services/helplines/main/questions.aspx or they’re open Monday to Thursday 10am-4pm and Friday 9am-3pm on 0808 800 4104

    I hope this helps you.

    Best wishes

    Lorraine Mod

  • And don’t forget the importance of non medical factors: finance, social, housing, friends. The answer is not all medical, and medicines and psychotherapy may be less easy with autistics

  • This forum can be very supportive and understanding. Keep posting on here.