Published on 12, July, 2020
So, the father of my boyfriend told my boyfriend today that i'm useless and that my sleeping habits have nothing to do with autism but being lazy. So much for getting a diagnoses and aiming for acceptance ;) Well, anyway. I'm so called lazy cause i don't work... i don't get up early, i'm currently in a bad habit of sleeping til 1pm in the afternoon. I have NO energy left in my entire body... i am behind the computer almost all day or behind my PS4 in the sofa... I enjoy being at home cause i can relax as i have to deal with a lot of worries and thoughts in my head. Sometimes, i just FEEL that i can't do anything. I have to even force myself to take a bath or to even make a payment. I'm in a severe auti- burn out... for years now. I don't take medication as i'm scared of the side effects. I am just scared of everything ... but i hate being called ''lazy''... My partner also has autism but less severe as he takes medicine... He used to be pretty much like me too in the past but due the medication he can function. He even has a job now... but his parents kinda forced him and they ignore his autism for the most part. Today they had a fight cause he did not want to help his dad with a task and they all blame it on me. They think he will become lazy too. It's partly true, cause its a very toxic relationship (not us as people but our concerns, and our autism, that i wrote in another post on here) So i can understand his lack of energy too and that he refuses to help his parents on occasions when he is tired. But i really can't take it, that i have a diagnoses now and that people STILL call me lazy..... and talk about my shortcomings. NOTHING has changed since my diagnoses, nothing! :(
Are there people on here with similar problems?
Moonmaiden
Yes! I pursued my passion/career which I absolutely love which I won't go into detail but is working from home and I can only do it in the afternoons and I need a very clear head for what I do so getting up late is perfect for me.
However when I used to live with my parents my dad always used to make me out to be lazy and sarcastically say "oh you're up", or tell every visitor to the house "he's in his bed!" really loud so I could hear, even though he well knew that I was in my room working on my PC and had been doing this for over a year, he couldn't accept it and needed to try and make me feel useless as well as tell everyone else.
I think arrogant, narcissistic tw*ts have their own beliefs which are usually wrong and there's nothing you can do but ignore them, in the end it's your own happiness that matters.
Also going to bed at 4am and getting up at 12pm makes you no different to someone who goes to bed at 12am and gets up at 8am. It's like saying the time of day you eat 1000 calories and do 1 hour exercise makes a difference to how much weight you will gain, totally irrelevant but most people like to conform to what we believe is normal. You sleep when your brain tells you to, I would never go out of my way against my brain just to please someone else