Published on 12, July, 2020
I know this is pretty futile musing, although maybe some of the more neurologically typical people on here can help! (I shy away from using the term "NT's" because it feels a bit "them and us" to me).
I've found myself wondering, as I'm accepting, exploring and deepening my understanding of my own atypicalness & ASD diagnosis, about what it's like for others.
For every "aha!" moment I have about e.g. noisy restaurants, eye contact, lack of capability / impetus to maintain friendships, exhaustion in social situations, there is a corresponding "What's it like for others?" moment.
So for example, for typical people:
I always wonder about the eye contact one.
To me, eye contact is at worst painful. Physically painful. Soul searchingly probingly painful. At best, it's "ooh wow go me I'm making eye contact", which is kinda distracting from the conversation.
So to NTs, does it feel any different than looking at a chair for example?
Actually since I saw your comment, I was thinking about the eye contact thing, because as much as I can see, that really doesn't make sense other than NT people. I wanted to explain why we do it, beside the "it just feels right" thing what's anything but helpful.
So what I realized about the eye contact: as I wrote before, I think a lot of NT people don't really pay attention to it and body language in general unless they find it strange.
I think eye contact became paired to positive traits in a conversation. Like when you look someone's eyes when they talk, it reassures them that you're listening. When you can "stand someone's stare", they usually say that you're a brave person. While looking away in a conversation has been associated with "lying".
I know that autistic people are usually listening even when they do something else, but for some reason NT people make it about the "respect" you give to someone if you stop whatever you're doing and you just pay attention to the person speaking to you. And to make it clear that you pay your whole attention to someone, you're making eye contact.
And there's the "bonding" part, what I'm done with Christmas Cards talks about.
I hope I helped a little.