I'm struggling to get through each day.
My mother has submitted a long and detailed complaint to the NHS and social services but heaven knows how long that will take to be resolved. It's already a process that's been ongoing for over 5 months, since she first submitted the complaint.
I go out for walks, it's one of the few things I feel able to do and feel terrified when I walk past some people, I don't feel much of a connection at all with society at large. I feel oppressed and scared.
I no longer have much trust in any government or council organisations, nor charities, though I admit I do rely on the Samaritans for regular support.
There have been nasty incidents from my neighbours at the flat where I live and likewise nasty incidents from my father at the house where my parents live and I sometimes stay to escape my neighbours.
I don't think the word depression does justice to what I'm experiencing. I feel it's more like social cleansing. That society is trying to eradicate me from the gene pool.