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Don't know where to turn anymore

Roswell

I'm struggling to get through each day.

My mother has submitted a long and detailed complaint to the NHS and social services but heaven knows how long that will take to be resolved. It's already a process that's been ongoing for over 5 months, since she first submitted the complaint.

I go out for walks, it's one of the few things I feel able to do and feel terrified when I walk past some people, I don't feel much of a connection at all with society at large. I feel oppressed and scared.

I no longer have much trust in any government or council organisations, nor charities, though I admit I do rely on the Samaritans for regular support.

There have been nasty incidents from my neighbours at the flat where I live and likewise nasty incidents from my father at the house where my parents live and I sometimes stay to escape my neighbours.

I don't think the word depression does justice to what I'm experiencing. I feel it's more like social cleansing. That society is trying to eradicate me from the gene pool.

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  • I have been where you are with the neighbpur thing. I moved in the end. But I would visit my toxic inlaws which I now know was a HUGE mistake. I live in a rather rough area, people care just for theSee no evilelves and prey on people like myself. However, I'm still battling on somehow. Today I'd planned to recoup after a run in with some man who creeped me out. But just sitting in my car at a car park toSee no evily dropping off my child I met another undesirable for a nasty 'run in'. I want to move out of area but then I do know my neighbour here and feel safer than ever before because of her. The first persSee no evil I've trusted here in 15 years! So there are good people. I have a really good gp but I think she only works once a week and it seems her hands are tied in the red tape of the NHS. I've started visiSee no evilng our local pub. The landlord seems to be okay and asks if I'm okay but isnt pushy (as others have been and I find out they have a hidden agenda). I'll go in during quite times, have a coke, try to have to a conversation occasionally, look at my phone and I leave when I like! Accidentally info dumped plant related stuff onto a local who then left! Guessing because of me, I try hold it in! Also a few comments on stimming but I've let a couple if people know why i do this and i think they watch out for this! If i notice I'll stop and chew gum or fiddle with stuff as my stim is so completly obvious! I never even noticed really. I've started church as I like the building its calm. But theres some nosey people who fired too many questions at me and as I'm too honest I got home and panicked as I gave away too much personal info. It makes me want to hide up and not go out and it exhausts me that I want to sleep. I've decided to confide in the reverend as she seems nice. I'm hoping I can trust her it's a leap of faith as I barely know her. I wonder if she can perhaps save me from things like too many questions if shes sees me stuck. Or for example yesterday a pushy lady asked if I would knock door to door delivering xmas cards I said yes (another issue is I cant say no) but this would be awful for me so need to talk to the rev about that too. What I think I'm saying is just try sit In the library reading or the local pub (i read there too) or where ever suits you. I get that little bit of feeling that I'm not completely alone and I can leave at any time

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  • I have been where you are with the neighbpur thing. I moved in the end. But I would visit my toxic inlaws which I now know was a HUGE mistake. I live in a rather rough area, people care just for theSee no evilelves and prey on people like myself. However, I'm still battling on somehow. Today I'd planned to recoup after a run in with some man who creeped me out. But just sitting in my car at a car park toSee no evily dropping off my child I met another undesirable for a nasty 'run in'. I want to move out of area but then I do know my neighbour here and feel safer than ever before because of her. The first persSee no evil I've trusted here in 15 years! So there are good people. I have a really good gp but I think she only works once a week and it seems her hands are tied in the red tape of the NHS. I've started visiSee no evilng our local pub. The landlord seems to be okay and asks if I'm okay but isnt pushy (as others have been and I find out they have a hidden agenda). I'll go in during quite times, have a coke, try to have to a conversation occasionally, look at my phone and I leave when I like! Accidentally info dumped plant related stuff onto a local who then left! Guessing because of me, I try hold it in! Also a few comments on stimming but I've let a couple if people know why i do this and i think they watch out for this! If i notice I'll stop and chew gum or fiddle with stuff as my stim is so completly obvious! I never even noticed really. I've started church as I like the building its calm. But theres some nosey people who fired too many questions at me and as I'm too honest I got home and panicked as I gave away too much personal info. It makes me want to hide up and not go out and it exhausts me that I want to sleep. I've decided to confide in the reverend as she seems nice. I'm hoping I can trust her it's a leap of faith as I barely know her. I wonder if she can perhaps save me from things like too many questions if shes sees me stuck. Or for example yesterday a pushy lady asked if I would knock door to door delivering xmas cards I said yes (another issue is I cant say no) but this would be awful for me so need to talk to the rev about that too. What I think I'm saying is just try sit In the library reading or the local pub (i read there too) or where ever suits you. I get that little bit of feeling that I'm not completely alone and I can leave at any time

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  • in reply to mouse2

    It's good to have a neighbour you like, I've never actually had a close bond with a neighbour anywhere I've lived yet. Hopefully the reverend is someone you can trust, play it by ear. I've often found it hard to say no to people too. Last year something awful happened to me because I didn't say no, something bad enough that I find it easier now. I finally lost my patience with pushy people. The other day I called up a housing charity for help and the woman on the phone just kept talking for about 3 minutes with me barely being able to get a word in, and she told me it was her who would be helping me, so I had agreed to meet her but realising I couldn't stand talking to someone like that because she was talking at me, I said I would be best dealing with it on my own and that I couldn't cope, said sorry then hanged up the phone.