Don't know where to turn anymore

I'm struggling to get through each day.

My mother has submitted a long and detailed complaint to the NHS and social services but heaven knows how long that will take to be resolved. It's already a process that's been ongoing for over 5 months, since she first submitted the complaint.

I go out for walks, it's one of the few things I feel able to do and feel terrified when I walk past some people, I don't feel much of a connection at all with society at large. I feel oppressed and scared.

I no longer have much trust in any government or council organisations, nor charities, though I admit I do rely on the Samaritans for regular support.

There have been nasty incidents from my neighbours at the flat where I live and likewise nasty incidents from my father at the house where my parents live and I sometimes stay to escape my neighbours.

I don't think the word depression does justice to what I'm experiencing. I feel it's more like social cleansing. That society is trying to eradicate me from the gene pool.

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  • It's difficult to give practical advice, except to say that you have my sympathy and you are not alone.

    For long periods of my life I felt a total disassociation from other people and society in general.

    And feeling unwelcome and unsafe in multiple locations is a nightmare.  You need to find a safe space where you can relax and recharge.

    I had similar problems in my youth, school was a nightmare with the bullying and going home was just as bad, with my father hating me and making it very clear that  he was ashamed of a weirdo like me.  And the neighbours were shunning not just me but me whole family.

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  • It's difficult to give practical advice, except to say that you have my sympathy and you are not alone.

    For long periods of my life I felt a total disassociation from other people and society in general.

    And feeling unwelcome and unsafe in multiple locations is a nightmare.  You need to find a safe space where you can relax and recharge.

    I had similar problems in my youth, school was a nightmare with the bullying and going home was just as bad, with my father hating me and making it very clear that  he was ashamed of a weirdo like me.  And the neighbours were shunning not just me but me whole family.

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