Published on 12, July, 2020
Like many other days I feel today I could have done so much more. The only thing of note I did today was make boiled brown rice and cabbage with toasted pecan nuts, served with freshly chopped parsley.
Otherwise I've done nothing memorable today. Didn't have the drive in me to read a book, watch a film, pick up the guitar and learn more - that's it.
Me, this isn't me though I am usually hyper motivated but the last 18 months have drained me of all my reserves and I have nothing left to give.
On top of that somebody I care about seriously invalidated me and questioned my integrity/honesty and it felt like they really wanted to hurt me.
I know that if Ifeel cared about and validated I ciuld concur the world but once somebody bursts my bubble it all gets too much and I retreat and hide.
miss u