Published on 12, July, 2020
Example 1: At my last psych appointment the pdoc said I looked happy. I didn't think I was.
Example 2: Was recently seen at main hospital emergency department because of chest pains. Tests were ok, but BP was higher than normal . Had to go for follow up the next day . Doctor said it had been raised because I was anxious. Apparently my pulse rate was fast. I hadn't noticed I was anxious.
I don't think it happens all the time ie I sometimes know when I'm anxious etc .
Hmm interesting reading this post and some of the replies.
I always describe myself as someone who feels very intensely.
But I wonder if it’s more that I don’t recognise it till it’s overloaded me and it has become too intense?
A question I almost always evade is, “how are you?” Or “how have you been doing?” Because either i’m unsure how to respond because I realise I don’t know how I feel, or i’m Feeling too much and too scared to answer because I don’t want them knowing some of the horrible thoughts I have in my head.
Intesnse feelings....I feel this is something I can relate to. I feel that quite a lot it's "all or nothing". I think I might have been seen as a bit of a drama queen by my parents when younger, I dont know.
A few years ago my partner and I were looking at houses. We saw one, he really liked it. I went along with it and after the second viewing on the way home we decided to go for it. I got home and threw the ironing basket and broke it. Like an outburst as I had all these feelings inside. It wasn't about getting my own way it was about getting my feelings out the only way I knew. I didn't want to move. I didn't want to buy this house. At no point did it ever occur to me to say "no I don't want to move there". I don't don think it even occurred to me that I felt that way. We didn't buy it in the end due to the survey. It was only about 2 years later I realised I am an adult and I have the agency to speak out if it's something I don't want to do.