Published on 12, July, 2020
I don't feel accepted and supported, I just feel defective, judged by everyone, and guilty for what I've done to my family. I know we're all entitled to our opinions and feelings, and that we all think differently, but I just really don't understand why some autistic people 'celebrate' it and think it's OK to be autistic when I honestly don't think there is anything less OK in the entire world, particularly when you're a woman and it's such a man's condition. I often feel my strong sense of identity as a female is being stolen from me.
I am a bit worried by this:
Sickle Moon said: I just feel defective, judged by everyone, and guilty for what I've done to my famil
Are you family actually judging you as defective and guilty of being in their life?
In that case it is very sad that your family are so discriminatory and abusive of you. You need to cut contact with them.
Call WomansAid
I think you are being abused and it erodes your self esteem and sense of self generally. You need to get away from that and rebuild yourself, push back.
It is always OK to be you.
If you are autistic, it is always OK to be autistic, because it is who you are. Love yourself.
If other people don't love and value you for who you are, it is their loss, they are toxic for you, stop contact with them.
If they are close family, you really need to kick them out of your life. They are not doing what family is for. Family is for unconditional love and support.
I really appreciate your concern and understand how you read that into what I said. You're clearly a very caring person. However, my family are not even the slightest bit abusive. My family have loved and protected me my whole life, and I repay them by being autistic. What a fantastic daughter I am - not.