I don't like deep and meaningful conversation because I'm not sure how the other person expects me to react, or not react to be more honest. I try to avoid it because I just can't do it very well. But.
When I get stressed, nervous, insecure, pressurised etc my body just goes into panic mode and I start to cry like a child despite it usually not being anything a grown man should shed a tear over. I'm anything but a child. In my 40's to be honest.
It's lead to my partner being both infuriated at times with my apparent lack of emotion/emotional support yet bizarrely referring to me as overly emotional at times too.
Am I having mini meltdowns or is this normal. I'm new to this.