Published on 12, July, 2020
Since I got my diagnosis a few weeks ago,, (aged 51 female for those that don't know me) I'm not sure who i am. I have struggled always, masked most of the time an had catastrophic mental health problems but also raised a family of 5 children got a degree and held a professional job for 20 years untill i became too ill.
I don't know how to be me. How to not mask, I can do all of nothing, mask or curl up in a ball. Stay in bed or up but I'm my nighty or go out and be that ever coping mother/ house wife etc. This is not working for me it messed with my head being the super masked woman, I need to not be her, but how do I be someone else that isn't just a fat blob in a bed rocking.
I'm NOT feeling suicidal at the moment, but there doesn't seem to be a lot of point to it all.
How do I become me?
So is it not unreasonable of me to curl up and switch the world off?
Song said:So is it not unreasonable of me to curl up and switch the world off?
Of course not. That is just my opinion for one, anyway...
As Martian Tom says - give yourself time. That people are posting here clearly shows that life does not cease after being given an ASC diagnosis.
Before or after switching off however, be sure to eat something and I think I aught to stop writing here now and let someone else say something better maybe...?