Hi this is my first post and I've not really introduced myself or anything but here is a short backstory.
I'm a single mum, I have aspergers and my son has high dependancy autism. He was diagnosed via ADOS-G through CAHMS with the assistant of SALT, EP, OT the whole nine yards. He has an SEN for 20 hours from the local authority and some of the major concerns with him involve self harming and a non-stop fascination with both the home computer and failing and death. He has an older sister who is currently being reassessed for ASD.
Anyway we've all been sick with the stomach flu the past week and I'm still recovering but this morning I woke up still feeling sick as a dog to my kids arguing over the home computer. I told them both to go clean their room and do something productive as opposed to arguing - My daughter agreed, my son protested. I told him I would revoke his access to the computer if he didn't clean his room. (Still trying to wake up) I see my son walk into the living room from the kitchen with a knife in his hands (he's 6 years old) I looked right at him and he realised I was fully awake and suddenly ran off into the kitchen and threw the knife back in the drawer. When I asked him what was in his hands he said he was going to kill himself because his life was over, but I cannot help getting a nasty feeling had I not been fully awake it would been aimed at someone else.
Either scenario is alarming at best and I am deeply distressed and do not know what to do or where to turn. Do I inform his school? Do I inform his doctor? Do I inform anyone and who? and other than locking all my knives and sharp objects away what the hell do I do now?
This little boy who is so sweet it's untrue has got me absolutely terrified not just for him but for myself and my daughter.