Don't know where to turn

FrustratedMummi said:

Hi this is my first post and I've not really introduced myself or anything but here is a short backstory.

I'm a single mum, I have aspergers and my son has high dependancy autism. He was diagnosed via ADOS-G through CAHMS with the assistant of SALT, EP, OT the whole nine yards. He has an SEN for 20 hours from the local authority and some of the major concerns with him involve self harming and a non-stop fascination with both the home computer and failing and death. He has an older sister who is currently being reassessed for ASD.

Anyway we've all been sick with the stomach flu the past week and I'm still recovering but this morning I woke up still feeling sick as a dog to my kids arguing over the home computer. I told them both to go clean their room and do something productive as opposed to arguing - My daughter agreed, my son protested. I told him I would revoke his access to the computer if he didn't clean his room. (Still trying to wake up) I see my son walk into the living room from the kitchen with a knife in his hands (he's 6 years old) I looked right at him and he realised I was fully awake and suddenly ran off into the kitchen and threw the knife back in the drawer. When I asked him what was in his hands he said he was going to kill himself because his life was over, but I cannot help getting a nasty feeling had I not been fully awake it would been aimed at someone else.

Either scenario is alarming at best and I am deeply distressed and do not know what to do or where to turn. Do I inform his school? Do I inform his doctor? Do I inform anyone and who? and other than locking all my knives and sharp objects away what the hell do I do now?

This little boy who is so sweet it's untrue has got me absolutely terrified not just for him but for myself and my daughter.

I've only just seen your message as someone posted on the thread and you replied.

I am in a similar position to you.  I also have Asperger's a youngest child with a diagnosis of autism and my eldest due to be reassessed.  Although I am not a single parent I may as well be as my husband works 7 days a week and I have dealt with everything alone.

My youngest (8) also has a very negative thinking pattern (although it's her older sister who is obsessed with the PC and gets hysterical and panicky if she's been naughty and I tell her she can't go on) and has gone to get knives before and said she may as well be dead.

So your situation is so similar.  I always keep the sharp knives up high in a cupboard anyway so only normal eating knives are in the drawer.  However I have literally had to empty the whole cutlery drawer and the scissors and put them up high when she's started saying she was going to get a knife to cut herself.

I have been asking for therapy for my 8yo, told SS that she has threatened to kill herself and still nothing has been forthcoming.  If you can afford it, you might want to think about getting private therapy for your son as otherwise you may end up waiting like us, CAMHS are useless.

FrustratedMummi said:

Hi this is my first post and I've not really introduced myself or anything but here is a short backstory.

I'm a single mum, I have aspergers and my son has high dependancy autism. He was diagnosed via ADOS-G through CAHMS with the assistant of SALT, EP, OT the whole nine yards. He has an SEN for 20 hours from the local authority and some of the major concerns with him involve self harming and a non-stop fascination with both the home computer and failing and death. He has an older sister who is currently being reassessed for ASD.

Anyway we've all been sick with the stomach flu the past week and I'm still recovering but this morning I woke up still feeling sick as a dog to my kids arguing over the home computer. I told them both to go clean their room and do something productive as opposed to arguing - My daughter agreed, my son protested. I told him I would revoke his access to the computer if he didn't clean his room. (Still trying to wake up) I see my son walk into the living room from the kitchen with a knife in his hands (he's 6 years old) I looked right at him and he realised I was fully awake and suddenly ran off into the kitchen and threw the knife back in the drawer. When I asked him what was in his hands he said he was going to kill himself because his life was over, but I cannot help getting a nasty feeling had I not been fully awake it would been aimed at someone else.

Either scenario is alarming at best and I am deeply distressed and do not know what to do or where to turn. Do I inform his school? Do I inform his doctor? Do I inform anyone and who? and other than locking all my knives and sharp objects away what the hell do I do now?

This little boy who is so sweet it's untrue has got me absolutely terrified not just for him but for myself and my daughter.

I've only just seen your message as someone posted on the thread and you replied.

I am in a similar position to you.  I also have Asperger's a youngest child with a diagnosis of autism and my eldest due to be reassessed.  Although I am not a single parent I may as well be as my husband works 7 days a week and I have dealt with everything alone.

My youngest (8) also has a very negative thinking pattern (although it's her older sister who is obsessed with the PC and gets hysterical and panicky if she's been naughty and I tell her she can't go on) and has gone to get knives before and said she may as well be dead.

So your situation is so similar.  I always keep the sharp knives up high in a cupboard anyway so only normal eating knives are in the drawer.  However I have literally had to empty the whole cutlery drawer and the scissors and put them up high when she's started saying she was going to get a knife to cut herself.

I have been asking for therapy for my 8yo, told SS that she has threatened to kill herself and still nothing has been forthcoming.  If you can afford it, you might want to think about getting private therapy for your son as otherwise you may end up waiting like us, CAMHS are useless.