Published on 12, July, 2020
Does anyone else get the feeling they they are literally from another planet , particularly since my diagnosis 3 yrs ago , I guess I just used to keep going but and things have happened in life trauma etc I just feel like I don't fit in any longer, I can't understand people and why they say and do what they do most of the time . Naturally I'm an introvert anyway, life recently is a complete engima to me , I wonder if it will improve ever or I will always feel this way, it doesn't win me any friends and can frustrate my wife at times because she does need other people in her life as maybe I should as well but the older I get the less I care , to me it is trival and much prefer the company of my Cats and Dogs, I understand their behaviour. I would welcome and further insights on this please.
When I was younger I thought I wanted people in my life, but now when I look back on social occasions or times meeting up with friends I don't get a warm fuzzy feeling of belonging, I get the feeling I was acting a part to prove I could have friends. I know now it was part of my masking. I'm not really bothered about seeing anyone now except my partner.
Yes I quite get this , none of my past interactions have ever really been memorable, just awkward.