Published on 12, July, 2020
Or are you like me? Expecting at any moment to be outed as an intellectual fraud. It's an area of high,possibly pathological,insecurity for me. I think it connects to the bullying related trauma. Being treated as a lesser person by my school age contemporaries, especially as a teenager.
I always get praised for doing clever things and being "amazing" at times and think "if only you knew"
I think self doubt is a massive part of autism, something I've discussed at length with therapist too. If I do 99 good things and one more that fails I feel 100 percent a failure!