Published on 12, July, 2020
Since realising that I am ‘on the spectrum, (having been assessed and diagnosed) which of course explains and gives reason for my behaviour and way of thinking, nonetheless, I’ve come to bitterly regret being this way - to the extent of feeling cursed. Does anybody else feel this way and would you - as I do - take a safe cure for it, if there was one? I’d hate to think I was alone in this regard.
You’re not alone. I used to think the same way. I used to feel cursed too. And think many other negative thoughts about myself. I would take meds for my autism for sure. I don’t think it’s a bad thing taking meds. If you had ADHD you would take meds isn’t it the same thing with autism? There already are meds to treat autism anyway. Aripiprazole and Risperidone have FDA approval to treat autism. I don’t know if they’re approved in UK for autism but I know they are available in the UK for psychosis, bipolar and maybe major depression also. Some other medications are in the pipeline for being approved for autism like for example: Cariprazine, Brexpiprazole and Tasimelteon. Thought you might find this interesting seen as you were talking about cures. These will not be cures though just an aid. I don’t think there will be cure or needs to be one.
Kind of, I certainly did more a while ago but I think the more I learn about it and the more I find ways to adapt and to some degree harness my differences to improve my life the more I'm content with being who I am. That doesn't make it easy or take away my struggles but I think I am getting to the stage where I can appreciate who I am. Knowing more about myself I've been able to look back in hindsight at things where I've benefitted from my differences.
No. I love my life and to be alive as I am.
No. I would like to be less anxious and have a better insight into the motivations of others, but having all my autistic traits removed - including the beneficial ones - does not appeal to me. It would change who I was in a fundamental way, and, as I am now, I think that I am one of the good guys.