Published on 12, July, 2020
Since realising that I am ‘on the spectrum, (having been assessed and diagnosed) which of course explains and gives reason for my behaviour and way of thinking, nonetheless, I’ve come to bitterly regret being this way - to the extent of feeling cursed. Does anybody else feel this way and would you - as I do - take a safe cure for it, if there was one? I’d hate to think I was alone in this regard.
Since I came to accept it 6 years ago (12 years after my diagnosis), I generally haven't.
Apart from that one time a total stranger accused me of lying about being autistic.
What they meant was 'I've seen Rainman, and being exposed to a 90 minute theatrical represetation of a more extreme form autism (about whcih I would otherwise know literally nothing) makes me qualified enought to contradict you, what with me being an arrogant, ignorant, ***.'
I once had a guy threaten to beat me up (we very nearly came to blows and would have were it not for others intervening) because I said I had PTSD (I have, btw), even though everything he knew about PTSD could be summed up in 6 words: it's that thing that soldiers get.