Feeling lonely

I wouldn't expect it from any autistic to do it on purpose. And thank you.

I wasn't aware of that. I will try to be more mindful about it though.

Adiyat said:

high-functioning autism

do you know that when you say 'I have autism' it sounds like you think it is something attached to you, like for example some illness, and that it can be detached, while in fact you are autistic for life. The same way you do not say 'person with blackness' but 'black person', or 'person with womenness' but 'women'

are you aware that every autistic can have high needs and low needs? Depending on circumstances and that it can change during lifetime, it probably means you haven't found yourself at the low end yet, I mean high needs, well I did, it's horrible, and if you say 'I have high functioning autism' you telling those of us who are stuck at high needs end for life, that you thinking you're better then they are, please be considerate

I found a video, where guy who understands what it means to be autistic better then I do talks about it

second half of this video www.youtube.com/watch

I'm not going to say sorry, though it was a bit of a rant, but we should take upon advocacy each and everyone one of us, so called 'own the label'

I understand how you feel and I feel the same way too. For me these feelings just come and go but when they do come, I feel terrible.

 I have high-functioning autism and ADHD and find myself torn between being fixated  and not focusing.

You’re not alone in this.

The ability to concentrate and focus can be forgotten if you had a really bad case of autistic burnout. Lots of memories forgotten. Happened to me, I even forgot how to do masking, after I recovered I had to rebuild many systems I developed in adulthood, still working on focus, it's hard as I've got ADHD as well

when I was on meds I felt like zombie, couldn't do anything, not even think straight until I stopped,