I’ve got a lot going on,. Full of hate and need something to take my mind off it.. Private or public.. general chat. I’m from Liverpool area and autistic, not horrible:-)
I’ve got a lot going on,. Full of hate and need something to take my mind off it.. Private or public.. general chat. I’m from Liverpool area and autistic, not horrible:-)
Eyup Stephen, I'm Dan, from Rotherham, South Yorkshire. I'm 45 and also not horrible lol.
What do you want to talk about? A general rant or something specific - you say you're full of hate. Do you want to talk about that?
Hate.. it’s a strong word. I’ve no idea, some reason or another I gave an album ‘way of the fist’ as background music a try. It was all new to me and pulled me right in. It’s my life all over.
im trapped. My partners phone is FULL of nude selfies.. I found a pregnancy test behind the washing machine. She’s cheated on me around 10 times in 7yrs.. I’m consistently trying to kill myself because I have nobody and every girl I’ve met cheats on me! No lie! I self harm. My partner hates me something rotten and nobody will help me unless I cry wolf… but then the kids suffer (3 aint mine but know no different) my youngest was dna tested.. 99.9% mine.. I’m full of hate. I hung myself on Christmas Day and couldn’t even get that right twice! All I ended up with is knowing how simple it is and a bruise necklace. I self harm a lot. I currently have a smashed right hand and wrist and a lot of hateful words scarred into my skin.
I love hate.
sorry dude… I’ve been crying for help since Boxing Day. But like I said.. either destroy the only thing I have or suffer.. welcome to my hate
Hello Stephen,
I’m sorry you are going through such a tough time, it’s good that you’ve let us know what’s happening/how you have been feeling. Many people have similar thoughts when coping with so much and we hope you’re okay.
If you are unable to cope with the distress or despair, it’s very important to tell someone about your feelings or thoughts of suicide. Call your GP and make an urgent appointment. Your GP can make sure you get appropriate help and support.
If it’s outside your GP hours call 111 to reach the NHS 111 service:
https://www.nhs.uk/nhs-services/urgent-and-emergency-care-services/when-to-use-111/
The Samaritans also provide confidential non-judgemental emotional support, 24 hours a day on 116 123, or by email on jo@samaritans.org.
MIND have information pages on coping with self harm or suicidal feelings based on the experiences of people who’ve been through it that you may find helpful.
If you are very close to doing something to hurt yourself - call 999 now or go to your nearest A&E department. There should be someone there to support you and make sure you get ongoing support.
You can find more information here:
https://www.autism.org.uk/advice-and-guidance/topics/mental-health/suicide
All the best,
ChloeMod
Hmmm I took an overdose in Aug 21, the Samaritans made me feel like I should take it even more. They ignored me with script responses.
im still waiting for MIND to respond. I’ve been ignored from day 1.. I email them every couple of months.. just a donotreply email acknowledgment.
shout?? Never texted back. I checked the number a few times. Yep, never text back.
111 goto A&E..
you goto A&E and get asked where your broken leg is, you know A&E is for acute problems.. arrowe park hospital!
GP, I tried to kill myself last night, ok, I can make you an appointment in 3 weeks.
white chapel. I make a domestic abuse cry for help. But they want to come for a meeting at my house. What the duck.
the police, because I don’t want to press chargers on the only person I have, my kids mum.. I’m wasting there time, they’re not mediators.
social services. I had a needs assessment,. I was then sign posted. When the police was involved social services got in touch again and confirmed I’m waiting to be sign posted. A few weeks later I cry for help through email to the assessment lady, a different person called me and denied me have an assessment, just large amount of notes.. I have a job, I have kids and don’t receive pip. Therefore I’m capable.
the only person who may care is my kids social worker.. but unfortunately her voice alone isn’t enough.
this is why I wish I was dead.
Hmmm I took an overdose in Aug 21, the Samaritans made me feel like I should take it even more. They ignored me with script responses.
im still waiting for MIND to respond. I’ve been ignored from day 1.. I email them every couple of months.. just a donotreply email acknowledgment.
shout?? Never texted back. I checked the number a few times. Yep, never text back.
111 goto A&E..
you goto A&E and get asked where your broken leg is, you know A&E is for acute problems.. arrowe park hospital!
GP, I tried to kill myself last night, ok, I can make you an appointment in 3 weeks.
white chapel. I make a domestic abuse cry for help. But they want to come for a meeting at my house. What the duck.
the police, because I don’t want to press chargers on the only person I have, my kids mum.. I’m wasting there time, they’re not mediators.
social services. I had a needs assessment,. I was then sign posted. When the police was involved social services got in touch again and confirmed I’m waiting to be sign posted. A few weeks later I cry for help through email to the assessment lady, a different person called me and denied me have an assessment, just large amount of notes.. I have a job, I have kids and don’t receive pip. Therefore I’m capable.
the only person who may care is my kids social worker.. but unfortunately her voice alone isn’t enough.
this is why I wish I was dead.
