Self Discovery?

Thanks everyone.

I wasn't going to write about this here, because it seemed too personal, but hey.. at least it's anonymous, right? 

I want to book an appointment to discuss options for assessment - but I am scared. Scared that they will brush me off. Scared I'm wrong. Scared I'm right.

My husband is getting frustrated with me. Says it's twisting me up, and my behavior is stressing him out. He is pushing me to stop reading / obsessing and just call the doctor already. I think he thinks I'm nuts and making this up. Says I've been acting weird since starting all of this research. I've been stimming a lot, and am having a hard time making eye contact.. but that is normal behaviour for me when I am working through something hard, especially something like this. 

I know that I mask a lot, even with my husband still. I'm scared of what he will think if or when I take the mask off.

yes stop reading obsessing ,,,,,,  get a list of reasons why u think u have autism and ring your GP. Then stop all research, reading about autism, leave your diagnosis to the professionals 

yes stop reading obsessing ,,,,,,  get a list of reasons why u think u have autism and ring your GP. Then stop all research, reading about autism, leave your diagnosis to the professionals 

I agree in principle. That would be the ideal. It's easier said than done though if you are struggling with problems in the meantime and you kinda know the answers are in there somewhere.

I confess, I'm doing nothing but reading.  I know the sensory aspects are there whether or not the full diagnostic criteria will in the end be made out.  I should think a significant SPD is the bare minimum that can be concluded. And that is causing serious immediate problems, I just can't wait months until my turn comes round for some help. :-(