Self Discovery?

Thanks everyone.

I wasn't going to write about this here, because it seemed too personal, but hey.. at least it's anonymous, right? 

I want to book an appointment to discuss options for assessment - but I am scared. Scared that they will brush me off. Scared I'm wrong. Scared I'm right.

My husband is getting frustrated with me. Says it's twisting me up, and my behavior is stressing him out. He is pushing me to stop reading / obsessing and just call the doctor already. I think he thinks I'm nuts and making this up. Says I've been acting weird since starting all of this research. I've been stimming a lot, and am having a hard time making eye contact.. but that is normal behaviour for me when I am working through something hard, especially something like this. 

I know that I mask a lot, even with my husband still. I'm scared of what he will think if or when I take the mask off.

When I went to a private clinic they gave me bunch of questionnaires to fill out before I had the actual assessment and write them a paragraph on why I think I I'm autistic and then they will decide if they think you should have an assessment.

I remember that it was cost free when I sent the email explaining why I thought I was I don't remember about the questionnaires I think they were free too I might depend on the clinic

When I went to a private clinic they gave me bunch of questionnaires to fill out before I had the actual assessment and write them a paragraph on why I think I I'm autistic and then they will decide if they think you should have an assessment.

I remember that it was cost free when I sent the email explaining why I thought I was I don't remember about the questionnaires I think they were free too I might depend on the clinic