Life's a Beach......

come one tell  us at least one story where u faced death before please

Hiya - Sorry for upsetting you - it's not my intention - I hope people find this thread useful.       There's so much I could say to put context around the Roy Batty quote but it would take pages to explain.   

I have done things that have positively changed the lives of literally thousands of people and helped save the lives of many more.     I've put myself in harms way many times and faced death on a few occasions.     Unfortunately, I can't escape this one - but I may be able to stretch my time with treatment.

The tests start in a couple of weeks. 

Thanks

Hi Plastic

I've read many posts on here over the last few years, but this is the first that has made me cry. I really identify with the Roy Batty quote - an amazing piece of cinemography.

Hope you have a good rest of your life.

Hi plastic,

( I had to create a new account today for what ever reason the update locked me out of my account my user name was just k anyway so not much change, but besides the point ).

I have been on this site for a year or so and have enjoyed reading your interactions

it's very sad to know you are in such ill health, i wish you all and anything positive to come your way. 

   I'm pretty robust....

Don't let the Ba$tards grind you down!

Hiya - I'm pretty calm about it all. 

I've had a lot of people around die over the years and I've seen some do it well and others waste their precious time.

I hope to leave the best possible memories for everyone.    I've lived a bit of an extreme life - I've already done what most people would think of for their bucket list so it's actually the small, personal things that become important - spending an afternoon in a beer garden with friends, going out to dinner with my wife and daughter, hugs & cuddles, taking photos, speaking to long lost friends - tying up all the loose ends.

I'm in an odd sort of limbo right now - I'm at home, watching tv, feeling perfectly ok - the injections have made it so I can breathe so I feel good.    Nothing will happen now until I go in for more tests in a couple of weeks so it's just almost surreal to think back 7 days being told I'm going to die.

In a way, the only thing that has changed is that everyone else on the planet has no idea when they will shuffle off - but now I have a countdown timer running in front of me.    It focusses the mind.     Is that better or worse?  

Thankyou.  

Thanks

Good Fortune to You, from Me also, Mr.Plastic... I agree with others here in not exactly knowing what to best say; apart from have a go at getting away from Cities and Stress, and as-per Your Usename, stretch Your Spirit and the Galaxy to support Your Body... (i.e. sort of Meditate.) Yes You're awesome n'all that... 

So so  sorry to hear you have been simitten with cancer. 

Its true life is like a beach  and eventuallly we all dissolve back into the sea from whence we came. 

However when you walk along a beach sometimes you find beautiful pieces of polished glass. You hold them up to the light and think "jesus thats beautiful !".

To me you are like one of those pieces of polished glass, a beautiful object that the universe created  thats a pleasure to encounter.

Let us all know how you're getting on.

Ditto!

I'm floored by this and don't know what to say. I'm wishing you strength! 

Cheers

It has highlighted a huge split in my mask - on the outside I'm totally rational and practical - I'm dealing with all the things that *have* to be dealt with - wills, pensions etc.    The nurses couldn't get their heads around the way I appeared to be functioning after being given the news - but it's classic engineer / aspie - we have a situation so we find a solution.   

Unfortunately, there's a little, terrified, 8-year old boy that pops out every now and then - almost schizophrenicly switching between the two when people touch upon any subject that's highly emotional - like my daughter etc.    A direct path to the *real* me.

I'm now out of hospital - survived the night ok - but having daily blood thinners - more tests coming in a week or so.

I'm so sorry to hear this the forum is always here if you need to chat, hope everything goes your way mate!

Ooh :( I'm so sorry to hear this.

You seem to be taking it really bravely in your stride.

As other have said, take it as easy as you can.

Thanks - the hospital has been amazing - I'm still here!     I've had lots of gross biopsies done - one was like The Matrix where Neo has the little shrimp 'bug' inside him and they have to get it out when he's in the car.    A bit traumatic!

I'm on blood thinning injections (in the stomach) until they can stabilise me for some more invasive tests in a week or so - that will give us the plan forward of surgery / chemo / immunotherapy etc. to see if they can usefully extend my time. 

I feel like a pincushion - I've had needles stuck everywhere - even a particularly painful one into the pulse in my wrist - holy crap that was painful - and unsuccessful - and now most of my forearm is black & blue.

I have a new-found respect for nurses - some of the patients here are just horrible, rude, ignorant savages.     And the nurses keep smiling.   Fair play to them.

My excitement for the whole of today is another injection this afternoon.        It's like being stuck on an endless RyanAir flight - trapped, bored, rubbish food and no idea when it will end.  

Hugs, Mate!

That's savage! Cancer has been placed on the back-burner because of the scam-demic.

Stay strong!