Life's a Beach......

….and then you die.

This is probably going to be the strangest thread I’ve ever posted.     I apologise if people find this upsetting.   I’ve mentioned before that I have some serious health problems – however…..

I was rushed to hospital last Monday morning unable to breathe – heart pounding, tingling all over, feeling feint – taken straight to the resus ward and had lots of tests and scans done.    

Turns out I have multiple pulmonary embolisms (lots of blood clots in both lungs) blocking almost all oxygen absorption – but they are a secondary effect of the cancer that has silently spread all around my body.    

I'm afraid that it's 'Game Over!'

I may or may not post here again – my priorities have been somewhat rearranged for me - but if I’m ever up in the middle of the night with some time to spare, you’ll see me smiling over the forum again for as long as I’m around.

I have a difficult journey ahead of me and, no matter how many friends and family are beside me, I will be walking this path very much alone.     

As Roy Batty said:

“I've seen things you people wouldn't believe. Attack ships on fire off the shoulder of Orion. I watched C-beams glitter in the dark near the Tannhäuser Gate.

All those moments will be lost in time, like tears in rain.”

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  • Good Fortune to You, from Me also, Mr.Plastic... I agree with others here in not exactly knowing what to best say; apart from have a go at getting away from Cities and Stress, and as-per Your Usename, stretch Your Spirit and the Galaxy to support Your Body... (i.e. sort of Meditate.) Yes You're awesome n'all that... Slight smile

  • Hiya - I'm pretty calm about it all.  Smiley

    I've had a lot of people around die over the years and I've seen some do it well and others waste their precious time.

    I hope to leave the best possible memories for everyone.    I've lived a bit of an extreme life - I've already done what most people would think of for their bucket list so it's actually the small, personal things that become important - spending an afternoon in a beer garden with friends, going out to dinner with my wife and daughter, hugs & cuddles, taking photos, speaking to long lost friends - tying up all the loose ends.

    I'm in an odd sort of limbo right now - I'm at home, watching tv, feeling perfectly ok - the injections have made it so I can breathe so I feel good.    Nothing will happen now until I go in for more tests in a couple of weeks so it's just almost surreal to think back 7 days being told I'm going to die.

    In a way, the only thing that has changed is that everyone else on the planet has no idea when they will shuffle off - but now I have a countdown timer running in front of me.    It focusses the mind.     Is that better or worse?   Smiley

  • Don't let the Ba$tards grind you down!

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