2am. Just woke up again and can't sleep.

When I am sleeping it's just nightmares.  I've just woken up from one.

So I'll just blog about my days.

My days are busy,  but I can't find a paid job to pay the rent. 

I get referred from one advisor to another.  My mental health employment advisor has now referred me to scope, the scope advisor has recommended more training and courses to fill my skills gap.

In the last few weeks I've done week long courses on:

  1. Introduction to customer care. 
  2. Customer care plus.
  3. Introduction to business administration. 
  4. Introduction to retail. 

One day courses on:

  1. Managing personal finance.
  2. Health and safety. 
  3. Equality and diversity 
  4. Healthy living.

Now I'm taking the functional English course, trying to get up to an acceptable level 2 in English. The formal grammar and jargon is gobbledegook to me.

Tomorrow I also have an interview for more unpaid volunteering work, greeting people arriving in hospitals.

What a life. I wish I was born an eccentric millionaire. 

Parents Reply
  • I also need the English qualification for teaching maths.

    ...Hi, Me again. I wrote a longer reply to "ItsMyMind", below. Also, to reply, My (uninformed?) opinion, including asking You about any "Equality / Diversity" business... Maybe, as an "ethnic minority" Myself, I might get this less blasted at Me (!)... but I would just press forwards, as I said, with emphasising the SKILLS. I know that life here is not fair, I honestly cannot emphasise how good at what I said You are that You are, Mr.Robert123...

    I guess that there once was a time when skills spoke for themselves, but now it seems to depend upon Luck and Money. Of course I cannot advise about that! I can only support You.

    To close for now, I would just say not to "bluff" through anything and just be honest all of the time, except in feeling threatened/in self-defence. It helps with the memory not to bluff or to lie, and pathways present themselves clearer. But it might still not be easy or fair. (Once I get too negative, I tend to leave off from Posting --- But again I say that I really meant what I said!)

    Just recognise any limits and push through them, or push harder to get others to recognise them to gain correct support... I do not know what else to say apart from that.