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Meltdowns and depression

Xannah_M

Hey all.  I have been struggling more than usual lately.  I've always had issues with my mental health, had meltdowns and burnout episodes throughout my life. This was before I got my diagnosis, which I only finally got this year (I'm middle aged, for reference). I'm going through a rough time because of trying to push through at work, dealing with overwhelm, attempting to get accommodations now that I have my diagnosis, etc. I had a meltdown episode recently at work, and thankfully I was able to go into a room...away from people. However, I'm struggling. So exhausted. 

Having my diagnosis has been such an eyeopener for me and has answered so many questions. Unfortunately, it doesn't mean that life would become simpler, which I am sure most of us know well. 

Anyway, just thought I'd sure because, to be completely honest, people around me just "don't get it" or they unintentionally invalidate me. This fact makes my experiences even more isolating.

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  • Yes it's eye-opening but doesn't help immediately with the exhaustion or the fear of being exhausted and not coping with it. Try break everything you do down and work out where you can let youself off with doing less, when you can just shut your eyes in a quiet dark room for a little bit, after work maybe? I've seen people talking about stopping working but that's not an option for me, so I'm trying to find ways to keep going but a tiny bit easier. 

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  • Yes it's eye-opening but doesn't help immediately with the exhaustion or the fear of being exhausted and not coping with it. Try break everything you do down and work out where you can let youself off with doing less, when you can just shut your eyes in a quiet dark room for a little bit, after work maybe? I've seen people talking about stopping working but that's not an option for me, so I'm trying to find ways to keep going but a tiny bit easier. 

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  • in reply to Cinnabar_wing

    Thanks so much for your response. After work, because I have chronic fatigue, I normally head straight home, and I’m in my bed soon after. I always am in the dark at home with my headset on since I’m more comfortable and less stimulated that way. I’ve been like this for years and years before having my diagnosis. I guess, constant coping outside of my “nest” is beginning to get the better of me. It doesn’t help as well, that I’m constantly rewarded at work for pushing myself so hard. When I am rewarded I often ask the manager “why am I getting this” because, in my head, I’m doing my job and it’s hurting me. But, because I’m resilient at all costs, this is what our NT world wants.