I feel there is no hope no more whatever has hold of me has no intention of letting go no matter how hard I try or ask for help! I am really in deep with my mental state I feel like ive completely failled myself an everyone else 
no one needs me , everyday is a constant battle 
I dont feel nothing no more.. I am just so lost.
Hang in there. I’ve been there. Being alone and misunderstood isn’t easy. I’m still trying to get my meds sorted properly. Please speak with your GP or a medical professional straight away. How can I help you? Rob
Ive tried to talk to my GP it gets me no where no one truly sits an listens to me, which is fine I get it at this point Im just a pain.. even the professional dont care they just pushed me aside to sometimes there's just no help I suppose.
This is the unfortunate reality of our situation. I believe professionals think they know autism better than anyone, when there really isn't enough research for them to be an absolute authority on how to help us. If there is research, they clearly aren't using it. Not every professional is like this, but it does take some time wading through the muck to find your people. You need someone who listens to you, clearly, and hears you, and understands you are a human being who needs help. You need professional help with your mental state, I can see clearly from your words. The fact you aren't getting it is a failure of the institutions that are supposed to help you, not a failure on your part.
I believe we know what we need better than anyone, if we sit and dig into our minds for a while, and find the core of what is causing our issues in the first place. Depression doesn't just fall out of the sky (I think), it has a cause, and dealing with that cause will reduce the depression, and make it easier to cope with.
For me, researching my mental state, and topics related to it, helped me put words to my feelings and experiences. You need to figure out how your brain works, and why it works that way. I hope you will be able to find for yourself a way to express yourself that satisfies your mind, and allows you some calm. Understand that human beings are not born depressed, we are made depressed by experiences with the world around us. As a result, we can become un-depressed with the right course of action. It will take a long time, Rome wasnt built in a day, but it is entirely possible. I understand how hard it is to work against executive dysfunction and deep depression, though. My words do not cover even one percent of how hard it is to deal with these issues.
It blows my mind how poor the NHS is, regarding autistic people, but it makes sense, given how isolated we are.
What are your interests? Are you too depressed for interests?
I hope this is helpful, and not vague or abstract.
I've sent you a friend request on here. That could be why there's no option, because we aren't friends. I'll look at my options, to make sure you can send me a message.
I've changed my settings, so anyone can message me.
You can set your setting to allow either anyone/just friends/no-one to be allowed to send you a message - to send someone a message or request to be their friend put your mouse over their name and select what you want to do from the options - maybe slightly different on a phone.
Its ok no need to apologise its all good.. just looked dont think theres a messaging box on here unless im just not looking right..
Either way just let me know.
No problem at all. You're 10 years older than me. It's going to be easy to remember that.
Sorry for jumping to assumptions about why you were asking.
Don't apologise, it wasn't your fault. I had an alarm set for a reason, and I chose to ignore it, like a buffoon.
I'll see if there's a messaging function on here. If not, I don't know what to do. I guess I'll drop a link to one of my social media accounts, if that's not against the rules of the site.
No problem at all. You're 10 years older than me. It's going to be easy to remember that.
Sorry for jumping to assumptions about why you were asking.
Don't apologise, it wasn't your fault. I had an alarm set for a reason, and I chose to ignore it, like a buffoon.
I'll see if there's a messaging function on here. If not, I don't know what to do. I guess I'll drop a link to one of my social media accounts, if that's not against the rules of the site.
I've sent you a friend request on here. That could be why there's no option, because we aren't friends. I'll look at my options, to make sure you can send me a message.
I've changed my settings, so anyone can message me.
You can set your setting to allow either anyone/just friends/no-one to be allowed to send you a message - to send someone a message or request to be their friend put your mouse over their name and select what you want to do from the options - maybe slightly different on a phone.
Its ok no need to apologise its all good.. just looked dont think theres a messaging box on here unless im just not looking right..
Either way just let me know.
