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Suicidal.

Zeb

Hi,

I'm a 27 year old male recently diagnosed with autism, which has made a lot of sense of the great difficulties I have faced - my sensitivity both with senses and emotions, and my tendency to be obsessive.

I've struggled with anxiety, panic attacks and depression for many years now and feel my best days are far behind me.  I'm very isolated, and it's hard to break out due to my fear of going to new places and meeting new people.

I feel that I don't belong in this world, and I have been battling deep emotional pain that I can't cope with, and I have been feeling suicidal for a long time.  I am getting to the point now where I have made plans, but it's not at all easy to face dying.  It's a catch 22 between facing the pains of life and the terror of death.

I feel very little hope and battle every day through these feelings of pointlessness and dread, and I don't know how much longer I can go on for.

I've been through the mental health services and my only hope is to pursue support from autism services, to see if with any assistance, I can feel that life is worth living again.  Maybe if I could find some kind of community and build more routine and belonging into my life, there might be hope.  It's so hard to meet new people and make friends.

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  • Dear  

    I’m sorry you are going through such a tough time, it’s good that you’ve let us know what’s happening/how you feel. Many people have similar thoughts when coping with so much and we hope you’re okay.  

     If you are unable to cope with the distress or despair, it’s very important to tell someone about your feelings or thoughts of suicide. Call your GP and make an urgent appointment. Your GP can make sure you get appropriate help and support. 

     If it’s outside your GP hours call 111 to reach the NHS 111 service: 

    https://www.nhs.uk/nhs-services/urgent-and-emergency-care-services/when-to-use-111/ 

     The Samaritans also provide confidential non-judgemental emotional support, 24 hours a day on 116 123, or by email on jo@samaritans.org. 

    MIND have information pages on coping with self harm or suicidal feelings based on the experiences of people who’ve been through it that you may find helpful.  

    If you are very close to doing something to hurt yourself - call 999 now or go to your nearest A&E department. There should be someone there to 

    support you and make sure you get ongoing support. 

      

    You can find more information here: 

    https://www.autism.org.uk/advice-and-guidance/topics/mental-health/suicide 

    All the best,

    Chloe Mod

  • in reply to Chloe Mod

    Hi Chloe thank you for the information... I am already quite deep into the system and beyond GPs - I am a patient with a mental health service and have an allocated psychiatrist.

    I feel very pessimistic about their ability to help, as I've been through dozens of medications now. I also fear not being taken seriously, and that if I keep calling them about my suicidal feelings, they'll think I'm just "crying for attention" and dismiss me as a nuisance.   GPs have been dismissive to me in the past which has been off putting.

    It seems the next step is seeking support from autism services, if they can provide any support in helping me to add more activities into my daily life, etc.

    Thanks again

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  • in reply to Chloe Mod

    Hi Chloe thank you for the information... I am already quite deep into the system and beyond GPs - I am a patient with a mental health service and have an allocated psychiatrist.

    I feel very pessimistic about their ability to help, as I've been through dozens of medications now. I also fear not being taken seriously, and that if I keep calling them about my suicidal feelings, they'll think I'm just "crying for attention" and dismiss me as a nuisance.   GPs have been dismissive to me in the past which has been off putting.

    It seems the next step is seeking support from autism services, if they can provide any support in helping me to add more activities into my daily life, etc.

    Thanks again

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  • in reply to Zeb

    Hi Zeb,

    Thank you for your reply. I am sorry that you have been dismissed by services in the past, I know that can make it difficult to reach out when you need support. It may still be worth updating your mental health team as they are best placed to support these feelings and thoughts. 

    It is really positive that you are looking at seeking support from autism services in adding activities to your daily life. The NAS has a Autism Services Directory that you may find useful if you are looking for autistic services in your area. 

    Best Wishes,

    Olivia Mod