It's not that I don't know anything about money, but it's the ignorant and unempathetic way my family comes out with it that only adds to my frustration and makes my depression even more severe. It should occur to people that I've got learning difficulties as a result of being autistic, and having learning difficulties causes me to struggle with solving math problems involving calculation. When not struggling with math problems, I find myself struggling with something else such as recognising phone numbers and answering the phone - types of daily living tasks that are extremely hard for those on the autism spectrum. That's why I see life as unpleasant and not worth living.