I hate being Autistic, and its ruining my mental health

Autism isn’t really something that can ruin your mental-health, being a neurological-state, a configuration of the nervous-system, it IS your mental health.
Autism can ruin your social-life, and your developmental-journey, and can make you more susceptible to psychological-disorder, and effect what behaviour you manifest; but it essentially IS what you have to work with. Im not saying this to be pedantic, I say it because it is what you do, and how you work-with your autism, that will reveal the right-solutions.  
You can only be you, and you are neither good or bad, you can only change the things that you have control over. If something is giving you stress or a low-mood, then you need to adjust the environmental-factor or find reasonable-adjustment to it, as complicated as that sounds its a damn-sight easier to achieve that, than it is to become something that you are not. 
It isn’t an impossible-goal to speak with people as an autist, it can be as simple as recognising the appropriate learning-technique, for example autistic-people tend to learn best by following a mentor or peer and developing a procedural/non-declarative competency. In short, you need to pursue your interest as a means of by-passing the issues that most autistic persons have with declarative-learning. In short, it means that you need to adjust to the impairments and disorders you may have, like earphones for sensitivity, like prompts for executive-function issues.  
You are not an idiot for being autistic, the neurotypical-world is an idiot for failing to realise the peaks you could rise to, if only they’d facilitate your exposure to your interests, in a world that has an incompatible cognitive-standard with yours. Go and get-em! Depressive-attacks come as quickly as they go..:) Depression is a liar..:) Your interest and achievements are the truth..:D

The nicest thing anyone said to me when I was struggling to come to terms with it was along the lines of, "yes I guessed you were autistic, but it's OK, you be you". We're all different, whether we're autistic or not. Everyone has strengths and weaknesses. Autism makes some things harder, and other things easier. 

Hating a part of yourself isn't going to help anything. It's OK to be frustrated and it's always good to want to work on your weaknesses, but you can never change the person you are inside. So you have to learn to like yourself :) That's more important than what anyone else thinks.

Meow, Meow Meow.

You are Autistic. You don’t ‘have’ Autism and it’s not to blame for anything.

if people have issues talking to you, it’s on them. 
And learn to accept compliments on your ‘amazing acts’ as that’s often how NT people see them.

The only person judging you is you! You are a perfectly normal Autistic person. Stop being so hard on yourself. Acceptance is where your strength comes in.

Hi - I can understand as I ended up in the mental health system and medicated. I have not yet received my assessment outcome so its a difficult time. Have you ever looked at compassion focused work and seeking some help with self acceptance. It is something that I struggle with so you are not alone.

You simply just need to be kind to yourself, it’s difficult but you’re different and that’s perfectly okay!

Are you doing any kind of therapy?