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Touay

Was I better off when i didn't know I was autistic, when I just felt I was so broken that I couldn't interact with people, so much so that I gave up socializing and was dead inside?

I now have to live the heartbreak that I will never be able to read people, never see an expression of love toward me .... and so much more ...  

...  a rough few days ...

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  • Touay,

    It is good to vent.  I know what rough days feel like - when they are strung together.  So the following is not aimed at trying to make you feel instant happiness / snap out of where you are..........but it will hopefully keep you positivity well gently topped up....

    Never being able to read people accurately or consistently DOESN'T mean you can never read people.  You can - the key is working out when you can and when you can't !

    You will get to see an expression of love toward you.....but you might need to look harder to notice it.

    Number

  • in reply to Deleted User

    Thanks.  i am late 40s and i have 'seen' a positive emotion towards me in anothers expression twice in my life.

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  • in reply to Touay

    I am often baffled when I encounter "love" towards me....I don't get it.....I often don't see it or brush it aside quickly.  I can cope and understand when I receive praise or respect for good/useful things I do... but generalised "love" type stuff is weird.

    I'm a bit older than you - but not that much.  I have come to understand (in the last year or so) that there are MANY things happening around me that I don't automatically perceive....but if I make a concious effort to be open to the idea that people might be "being nice to me".... I can see it (or the possibility of it) FAR more readily.

    When you are ready (worked past your current blues), perhaps make a concious effort to have a PMA (positive mental attitude) towards TRYING to be open to the fact that people ARE actually being nice/loving towards you.....and perhaps you are just not auto-tuned to spotting it.