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When my situation became untenable, I moved into the YMCA, perhaps it is something to consider. For people on the Autistic Spectrum, it is easier to have a space of your own, not being harassed is very valuable to our self esteem.  
I’m not saying that you should, but it’s nice to have options, it is just nice not to feel trapped.

It sounds like you're dealing with a lot. Dealing with someone in denial about their mental health issues is really a minefield. I can only imagine it's worse if they are rude and unpleasant too.

Er no. That really didn't go well last timme.

My Nan was the same, while my brother was irregular with his sleep. Also, she was a stubborn Taurus; so was my brother. The atmosphere was caustic, while he was a teenager. But, now, he's a well-rounded man. He just had to grow up.

I found out, in the Art Class this evening, that a young girl - undergoing the driving test in Cookstown - was hit on a dual-mini-roundabout on Monday. My friend cut the face of me while I was trying to park at the side park beside the location, in Moneymore, but I told him that parallel parking is well-nigh impossible in that village; on the main Cookstown to Belfast road. But we settled ourselves; he also lent me paint, and burshes, as I forgot my stuff.

This country would try an angel's patience.

Try to move out at the earliest opportunity.

shortstuff, your cousin's recommendation sounds good, If you've got a creative streak  you should explore it.

Ben

Hi Shortstuff,

that sounds hugely stressful - I’m sorry. Our home such ideally be a sanctuary - and it’s very hard for it to feel stressful in the way you describe.

would your parents be willing to attend a sort of ‘family meeting’ where you can all calmly discuss the things that aren’t working very well for you all at the moment? If you approached that idea in a calm, supportive and non-judgemental way? 
I imagine your mum loves you and wants you all to get along - so she might be amenable to a friendly chat about how you all feel things are going since you moved back home.

Do you have your own room and your own space in the house?

Alternatively is it at all possible that you could move somewhere else at some point? Or is not not practically possible? 

I found counselling with a counselling who is autism aware 100% more successful than with one who admitted they knew nothing about autism. 
A counsellor who only knows solutions for Neurotypicals won't understand why you can't do or process what they want you to process in the only way non autistic people do stuff - and hence you end up in circles.

There's a list on this website of autism skilled counsellors - I had years with my NT counsellor - good for grief, but useless for relationships. one month in with my ND counsellor - and loads more progress than made in all the previous years.

Otherwise regarding your situation - the main thing is to show up every day and don't give up, ever. Some of us are a lot older and been through similar, and the best reassurance I can give here is - it will get better, trust us on that.

Hi there. Counselling really didn't help me in the past. Just felt like we were going round in circles! My cousin recommended I do more abstract artwork to explore my emotions though.

Shortstuff,

There !  I bet you feel a lot better now you've got that all written down.

Have you thought about seeing a counsellor? I found it a great help when I was going through a lengthy bad patch a few years ago.  I used to write it all down in rather weird, slightly obscure verses which made me feel I'd done something creative with my angst. And I had ! My counsellor and I explored all sorts of things off the back of them. There was often a lot more in them than I'd knowingly written.

Big things can seem a whole lot smaller once they're down on paper.

I don't do it just now, but would if I needed to.

Ben