loosing my mind.

I keep getting more and more delusional everyday. The relationship I have been in for a year and a half turned into a long distance for the next few months since we both wanna focus on our career and he went back to his hometown for the period. My brain keeps trying to convince me that he doesn't love me anymore or he is cheating on me with his female friend. I have grown up in a society that demonizes male female friendships. I am trying to normalise it in my brain and unlearn the automatic thoughts and patterns. How do I deal with these delusional Scenarios that I find so hard to push away?

  • Are you suffering general/high-levels of anxiety?   That can bring about things like this, psychosis perhaps, but either way you might want to see your GP and talk about it, or community mental health team, doesn't mean diagnosis or severe treatments, even low doses of anti-psychotics or something can help as that's what I get to help manage thoughts better and it also reduced anxiety a bit, though I've reduced it right down since using CBT techniques which may also help but perhaps not right now.

    Try not to engage with what's happening, focus on real things around you, observe it and decide not be affected.  Hold on to what is real, and don't dwell on what's unreal - unreal is not going to helpful usually, unless guidance from within if you were spiritual but I'm guessing not.  You could say in your mind its not useful when it happens, and say I'm going think about something better, or do something better.

    Find out how other people handle these things as well, with mind things trying tools out until we find one that works for us is how it goes.

  • I am going through a lot of delusional scenarios at the moment too, I havnt really found a solution but I share your pain

  • Some posts are spam, no mention of autism and doesn't seem autism related - if you google text of posts, especially new accounts that don't introduce themselves then you find have more time for the posts that matter.

  • keep in contact with him is all i can think of. if you break contact and go silent then yeah that would feel like a relationship split.
    make plans together for the future, they will act as reassurance that he wants to stick with you for the long game. make it so your plans have you both together and not being separated by work. that perhaps needs to change if possible in your future plans. i dont find it delusional to be honest.... a split that sends you apart for long term can split apart relationships, thats not delusion thats just common sense. your just alert to a very real possibility in that situation where you have both put career above relationship.

  • Have you tried writing them down and what you would like to replace them with? 

    Repetition makes us do these things unconsciously, so if you keep letting the thoughts out expressing them and then write what you would rather think repetitively you may come to unconsciously think about something better.