What does executive function feel like

You sound like you are in burn out. Exactly, how I felt.

The executive function will come back when the burn out abates.

Dont do near enough for it to be burn out..more like the flame isnt lit. Im sorry for asking so much i just feel like the scummiest guy on the planet right now and my life is in freefall

But that's it burn out can almost have you in a state of paralysis. You are not the 'scummiest guy's, you're just autistic and handling too much. You've been doing too good a job a while - and now you can't and a break.

Who have you got around you? Any one there to take the load to stop the free fall while you recover?

Ive always done very little. The more i come to do the more im breaking down. It feels like ive dodged life and dont know how to cope doing more....feels like facing a lie and that im not up to basic life. 

Ive always done very little. The more i come to do the more im breaking down. It feels like ive dodged life and dont know how to cope doing more....feels like facing a lie and that im not up to basic life.