Stimming

we stim for 2 reasons - either to stimulate thinking about something specific, or to fight anxiety. I would say it makes you anxious to think about yourself like that, and you have no idea why, or what's for, so your subconsciousness is stimming to fight raising anxiety.

I recently watched a video about stimming www.youtube.com/watch and it turns out that many of my gestures and moves in childhood (3-8 from video) are considered stimming, so I was doing it unawares. Some of them continued into adulthood, and I do them all the time.

I can lie in my head, but when I try to say iot outloud I begin to stammer. I would say I experience similar reluctance when I try to consider how to do it without stammering.. 

we stim for 2 reasons - either to stimulate thinking about something specific, or to fight anxiety. I would say it makes you anxious to think about yourself like that, and you have no idea why, or what's for, so your subconsciousness is stimming to fight raising anxiety.

I recently watched a video about stimming www.youtube.com/watch and it turns out that many of my gestures and moves in childhood (3-8 from video) are considered stimming, so I was doing it unawares. Some of them continued into adulthood, and I do them all the time.

I can lie in my head, but when I try to say iot outloud I begin to stammer. I would say I experience similar reluctance when I try to consider how to do it without stammering.. 

How do you mean lie in your head. I was hitting myself over the head...crying lile mad. Panic attacks you name it. My body will do wierd freakout etc