Stimming

I didn't used to realise it was stimming before, and I used to try to suppress it.

I tend to do it more in social situations and when anxious. I've realised whenever I am on a video call at work there are certain repetitive movements and repetitive actions that I do and I wasn't aware I was even doing them before.

It feels like stuckness in the body

I wish my hands were connected by USB. That's where the anxiety shows. 

I'm only trying to understand. So it's not your body trying to prevent you from doing something. ok

How do you mean lie in your head. I was hitting myself over the head...crying lile mad. Panic attacks you name it. My body will do wierd freakout etc

we stim for 2 reasons - either to stimulate thinking about something specific, or to fight anxiety. I would say it makes you anxious to think about yourself like that, and you have no idea why, or what's for, so your subconsciousness is stimming to fight raising anxiety.

I recently watched a video about stimming www.youtube.com/watch and it turns out that many of my gestures and moves in childhood (3-8 from video) are considered stimming, so I was doing it unawares. Some of them continued into adulthood, and I do them all the time.

I can lie in my head, but when I try to say iot outloud I begin to stammer. I would say I experience similar reluctance when I try to consider how to do it without stammering.. 

Hi Weazelbeast,

Thank you for sharing this with the community. I'm sure some of our members will be happy to share their experiences with stimming. You may like to have a look at some of the previous NAS threads on stimming:

https://community.autism.org.uk/search?q=stimming

I hope this helps,

ChloeMod